Life is what we make of our time on this side

So, as we always say but never really believe, we have to be in the moment because you never know how long you will be here. The first thing that popped into my head after learning that a colleague at work has passed away suddenly was: writing is my choice and that is what I have to do! I’m so happy I’ve come to this realization at this point in my life, the present, because it’s all I really have. I don’t know why the death of someone closer to us has such an impact, when we hear about death on the news and social media all the time. Well actually I do know, it’s just because we can relate more to someone that works in our office than to soldiers or people killed in a suicide bomb attack in some country at war or overseas. Also, if it’s someone we knew personally it reminds us more of the fragility of our own life, as if death came for that person instead of us, but it could have come for us maybe (in a sort of physical proximity to death). For me, it’s actually the second time that someone I know (other than family members or friends) that works/studies at the same place as myself passes away. It’s hard, it feels unreal at first, because you don’t see them everyday, so in a way instead of dead it could be that you just didn’t see them that day. So, as I was saying, I think it is really important that I continue with my writing and really doing what I’m passionate about, because I have put it off for a long time. All my life I had this belief that we need to live the best we can every single moment of our lives because we never know when we will die, but looking back I realize it was just words and I wasn’t acting really according to what I was saying.

Today, I can say I know what happiness looks like for me and I’m so happy to be pursuing it, even if the ideal conditions are not in place yet, I’m working towards my dream life and that is important. And if I have to leave earth this instant (aka die) I will have been happy and fulfilled living my dream. When we can reach this place, I think mental, physical and emotional health follows because we are in peace with the universe around us.